16 September 1986

Reproach Beyond a Dog (poem)

A soothing ritual, nightly enacted;
a process habitual, rightly exacted:

book on her chest, rum tea on the table
a cigarette lit,
it was then she was able to settle
and rest
but for the test of patience she faced the mealy-mouthed mutt
with it's yap all agape

she fancied the sight of its muzzle in tape

and conceived small devices
with electrical plugs
that would silence the cur-- (but never worked out the bugs);
and so left with her slow-burning rage for this hound

she resolved to take no more of this lying down
she had squirmed and turned
and yearned to be free
of the maddening burn
in her breast
brought on by the pest
of the dog.

A fog
of anger had welled heated, bubbled, swelled
'til all her thoughts were zeroed in
on when the dog
would begin again.
she had tried to fashion it into a game
two beats,
four beats
pitch change and range
but the idea that merely a leaf in the wind
could let loose barrages of barking again

was too much to bear.

she saw the man there

through the window upstairs
loading useless antiques at the back of his truck
oblivious, deaf
and what the fuck
is so tough about hushing the noise
made by Toby or Fido or little McGruff
(or whatever the hell his name was)
she wondered what his game was?
did he wish to drive his neighbors half insane

(perhaps that was his stealth: he wanted the street to himself)
like the bother of a grain
of sand in one's shoe?
she wondered who
would blame her for muting the mutt forevermore?

snatching a jacket
donning her sneaks
she left on a mission resisted for weeks
an
d weeks without end: to stifle the vocals of man's best friend.
down the drive
and across the street
crept she on her rubber-soled feet

back to the cage where the wretched dog dwell
heart thumping wildly hoping like hell
he was ugly and mean
or a sick shade of green

to make the task easier
so to walk away clean

and there stood the mongrel his black soupy eyes

in question upon her
and
a dubious wag of a bobbed-off tail
betraying a trust in the hand that could fail

to halt before it struck him

low creature meets high and the two stare awhile
the dog finally sitting with an ignorant smile
upon his black-furred lips brown fur at the tips
of its ears
cocking its head and waiting.

hesitating
, she squatted down to study the nemesis closely
and found the hound was mostly
quite cute
and had ceased its cries
since eyes met eyes

and ribs protruding from meatless sides

its bowl overturned in the cage empty

the water basin dry
and she knew why
her anger grew so great
for dumb creatures have not the power to care for themselves
while captive but man in his mindless state

cares for nothing save himself and this was worthy of her anger.

a hand reached out to pat
the pooch through chain-link fence
the change of heart
making sudden sense
and she stood
, her heart full of something foreign and sad
a feeling she knew she should have had
long ago.
a flick of a finger released the gate
the pup cocked its head confused at his fate
and she smooched
at the pooch
and offered a hand.
it came over to greet her
entreat her
to be kind
and in her mind
she knew what to do to solve the dilemma
and reached for the mutt
and held him still it licked her face as puppies will

and turning she made off
with mongrel in hand
back to her house
for a nice juicy can
of
stew and some water it's all he needed she thought,
and he oughta
be much calmer next door
on a rug on the floor

with a master who loves and adores

and the puppy was quiet forevermore


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